I was sitting right there as she hurried by
She was looking for her mother
A grown woman now
With a worried look on her face
She had the weight of the world upon her shoulders
She wanted to show her mother
All the things that she had done
But most of all she wanted time
“Look Mom” she wanted to say
“Have I done well?
I want you to see me
Do you see me?”
I shot up with a start
“Here I am, you just walked right by me.
Of course I can see you!!
Can you see me? I want you to see me!!”
But as she scanned the people nearby
She didn’t seem to recognize me
Then her eyes settled on me.
Yes, I said, I am right here! It’s me, Mom!”
For a full minute we just stared at each other
“No, you aren’t my mother.. you look like her
It’s kind of weird, in fact it’s downright disturbing
I’m looking for my mom and you aren’t her!”
“I am your mother!” I said
But these words only pierced her heart
Frustrated we parted ways
As she walked away I noticed
That parts of me were breaking off
And falling all around me
Like glass my chest shattered
And I fell into a deep trance
I was taken back to a time
When my mother was always looking for hers
I would sometimes say to her
“Mom, I’m your daughter, I’m right here.
Can we focus on me?”
Most times she couldn’t see me
In fact, I felt invisible
She was lost
Even though she’d been found
Alway’s looking for her mother
Who left her when she was a wee child
She did not have the words I needed
Her mind was otherwise engaged
The mind chatter deafening her to my calls
All my feeble attempts failed
But there were true moments of bliss
Like after I gave birth for the first time
She came to see me
When she walked into the bedroom
I thought she would scoop up my baby
But to my absolute delight
She came to me first
As I lay there sweating and exhausted
She kissed me on my forehead
She looked into my eyes
She was smiling
It was probably the most powerful moment of my life
It is a labyrinth, this life
Filled with pain and pleasure
Sorrow and joy
Captivity and freedom
But this must be pursued
One must truly desire love
In all it’s meanings
One must always chase it
It’s in nature, it’s in a word
Or a deed, an act of kindness
In a look..
But we get lost oftentimes
It’s a learned behavior…
So when you’re lost
Remember you can be found
Walk through the portal
There is light at the end of the tunnel
My hand is reaching out to you
To pull you up out of your despair
You are weary from the battle
It’s time to come home
Let’s not end up like some
Who wait a lifetime
I have carved a shortcut for you
I have swallowed the pain
I have digested it
I have been poisoned by it
But I lived through it
And now I can see
It is not about me
And it’s all about me
Every lesson from every mother
Handed down in DNA
Passed on prejudices and fears
Hopes and dashed hopes
Dreams and magic..
Remember my love
We are not like everyone else
We are super heroes
With super powers
But coming from the island
Of misfit toys
We are broken and chipped
And weird and different
But blessed with hearts and minds
To change the world
So when you come back to me I will show you
I was lost, but now I am found
I was blind, but now I see
Only in part, we none of us can fully
Until we come face to face
With the glorious creator of us all
When the fear and confusion dissipate
Now I know how the creator feels
Arms stretched out
Just waiting to be seen
Waiting for us to see
“Look at what I’ve done!
I’ve done all this for you!
Because I was lonely so I built a world
And more worlds
And everything in them
And I saved the best for last
I made you!!!
And it has been my great joy
And my hugest sorrow.
I am crippled by the want of your love
That you should see me, and know me
Come to me
You who are heavy burdened
And I will give you rest
Rest from your worries and troubles
I will pour into you so much love
That you will not be able to contain it
But I will wait..
There is a veil between us
Shifting shadows are what you see
Go dip in the muddy river
It’s time to open your eyes
This world offers much anxiety
Which causes the mind to dig holes
Black holes, we can fall into
Must be careful to grow lots of tendrils
Toward light and love
Healing comes when the search is over
Rest now, I AM here
Listen to the song in your heart
Make space to hear it
It’s a song of hope and peace
I wrote a verse in that song
Just for you
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