She was orphaned at five when her mother died

Her dad still lived but he was out of the picture

He was a train engineer, always away

Maybe that’s why the sound of a train gives me a rush

She lived in houses with other people

Not ever a home to her

Except for the Goodson’s who took her in

For a while she lived on a farm

She had a horse she could ride

She never wanted to leave there

But she had to

She was born with 4 older brothers

One by one she lost them

She bore 4 sons then had me

She graduated high school in 3 years

To get out of the hell house she lived in

She went to college and met her man

He fell head over heels in love with her

Her beauty and the way she saw the world

So unlike anything he had ever known

From different sides of the tracks they were

He became a bomber pilot

She gave him 5 children in 7 years

She never really fit in

She was an enigma, filled with a wild view

She rescued Irish setters

She allowed any and every exotic animal

To be rescued by the rest of us

From owls and hawks

Snakes and an alligator

Repiles, amphibians, mammals

Bottle feeding raccoons and squirrels, skunks

Chimpanzees and other monkeys

And whatever came our way

We were the Folger Family

Iconic in Cincinnati back in those days

She stood in picketing lines

Against animal testing

I was pulled from my class to assist

In rescuing some poor Irish Setter

From an abusive home

My favorite story was the day

I was walking home from school

And a crowd of kids were throwing rocks

At an apartment building

I yelled to them to stop

So they turned on me with the rocks flying

I was just as tempermental as mom

I ran home while they laughed at me

I broke through the door yelling

“MOOSE!!! ERIN!! BESSIE!!!!!!!”

Those were the three most terrifying dogs we had

A Weimaraner, an Irish Setter and a German Shepherd

I leashed them up and ran up the street

That crowd of kids ran in fear

Into the lobby of the building

Locked in a small space

They were trapped and I yelled at them

“You come out of there or we are coming in!!!!”

The dogs were right on cue

Sensing my rage they growled and barked

And bore their terrible teeth

And leapt at the leash

Displaying a terrifying scene

The boys and girls- teenagers

Came creeping out

Hugging eachother and crying and begging

It was then I heard the sound

Like a river of slashing barks

Here she came, around the corner

My mom, with 7 more dogs

It was so funny I almost fell over laughing

But for the seriousness of the situation

Which demanded my rage to display

She looked like she was plowing a field

Leaning so far back so as not to fall forward

The pulling of 7 Irish Setters

Well, I was never more proud of her

So before hell was let loose

I told those kids to leave and never come back

I said, “If I ever see you again

There will be no leashes!!!!”

To this they all ran screaming

And crying up Madison Lane

Mom and I retreated home

No words needed to be spoken

The men were not there

We took care of it

God I love that memory

There were so many stories

Too many to tell today

On this day, the time has come

For all the years we missed

I wish it were not so

For all the times we did not see eye to eye

I wish it were not so

I wish you knew my kids

I wish you could know my grandchildren

I spent so many years wishing and praying

But I am glad for how we found eachother again

After Barney left us

We had time to spend

Even at a distance

It was better knowing you were there

It has been a long journey

It was not fair what you went through

A child should never have to suffer as you did

But it will be your laugh I remember

Those times at a holiday

When people of all existences were given a seat

Your table was extended to all those

Wandering souls…

You understood them, welcomed them home

There is never enough time to find yourself

Never enough time to mend the wounds

Never enough time to heal completely

And then you were taken bit by bit

That horrible disease took you step by step

I remember the last time I saw you in Key West

We talked for a long time by the sea

You said the most healing thing to me

“I really wish I had known you before”

Of course by then you forgot I was your daughter

But I told you the same- I wish the same

But we have eachother now….

Time, distance, enemies of the soul…

But your hero never left your side

He stood with and beside you all the days

Of your over 66 years together

He told you when it was time to leave

You were waiting to hear this I know

For who knows how to say goodbye

Goodbye now Mom

You left us a little while ago

But today, you are laid to rest

You will be with Barney now

Your amazingly crazy, hilarious

Adventurous, beautiful son

My Irish Twin

And your mother and father

Your brothers and so many more

I cannot be there today, to say goodbye

To stand with your man

To hold his hand as I would do

Because that is just the times we live in

No visit to say goodbye

No holding your hand

No telling you what I needed to say

But you know now don’t you

Once you saw through a foggy lens

Now you see with clarity

That I was here all the time

Loving you and wanting you

And I am so grateful you kept insisting

One more child

Till you had a girl, that was me

I know I was not what you thought I would be

But in the end

I love you, always did, always will

You did it

You made a family

A legacy to be proud of

From Ted to Mike to Jeremy To Barney

And to me… we are your legacy

We will always carry you with us through our children

And our grandchildren

Your gift of sight to believe in mysterious things

You never got to take a dancing class

Or painting or singing or anything else

But you gave it all to me

I will now try even harder to give this

To myself and my own

But so much more

To any and every foster child

Or kid who never was given the chance

You should have been a great talent

Your songs and dances should have happened

But in private you were a writer..

So I will remember this last thing..

One time as a teenager I asked you

“What do you think I will be when I grow up?”

Without hesitation you said

“A writer”

I had never done that… but everyday you did

You wrote and wrote

When I started this blog it was because of you

I am no writer

I do not know how to do it right

But I will write and I will make sure

That others like you

Will get the chance while they are still young

To express themselves creatively

To have a shot at finding their voice and

Healing their wounds

But I will need something from you to do this

Infuse me with your ideas

Inspire me in the sunrises and sunsets

And let’s do it together

You in your newfound freedom of eternity

And me trapped in this world

Show me the path and I will walk in it

Okay

Today Dad will be by your side

As they lay you to rest..

I am there in spirit

I know you are already gone

But I miss everyone so terribly

The sharp pain will ease

Time heals

But you, for all we went through together and apart

I will look for you in nature

That is where you saw the universe

And so do I

You know why

Against all odds

I am your daughter

I will always carry you with me

When the sunsets tonight

I will see you waving goodbye

And when it rises tomorrow I will hear you

In my heart whispering

Be who you were born to be

And I will

I promise to do my best

Bye for now Mom

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When I was just a kid

I would climb the pine tree in the front yard

There was a place

Where three branches came together

Two and a half stories high

I would slide my body

Into the branches embrace

And sway with the wind

Rocking me to calm

Like a grandmother

So non-judgemental

Always there taking a beating

As winters came and went

Branches broke below

I don’t know why this tree

Likely because it’s branch grew over

The roof outside their bedroom window

What a thing to do

So exhilarating to climb out their window

Shimmy down the roof

To hop onto the branch

And up and away I would climb

To my throne of imagination

I would close my eyes to see

What it felt like to sway and listen

I wish I could go back there

But the tree is no longer there

It is no longer my families home

And decades have come and gone

But I can still close my eyes

And feel the swaying

The slow rhythmical backward and forward

Side to side movement

Like a rocking chair, only better

I guess my love of trees came from an acting class

Mom put me in an acting class as a little kid

The teacher said to stand up

Close your eyes

And pretend you are a tree

I stood there with my arms outstretched

Swaying ever so gently

I imagined what a tree felt like

Did it think about the birds

The squirrels and raccoons

Who lived in its branches

I got so lost in thought

I forgot I was in a room

Filled with other kids

Finally I opened my eyes

And I was the only one still standing

How long had I swayed

Standing there being a tree

The giggles of the other children

Assured me I was weird

But the lesson of becoming a tree

Has never left me

They have been my constant friends

From then till now

So majestic, so embracing

So defiant of the storms

As they stand there

And hold up under

The weight of weather

The freezing cold

The snow, the ice

The wind, the rain

They stand tall

Until their time has come

The wisdom gained

From friendship with a tree

Is well worth the climb

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What is it that makes us

That truly defines who we are

And what we are becoming

I am determined

From all my examined thoughts

That all I have ever known

Points me to the truth

All the lessons I have had

Can serve to instruct me

I truly believe the power

It lies within our thoughts

The power of the mind

Which does not distinguish

Between good and bad

It only acts as a conduit

To energize us to achieve

Either greatness or failure

The pathways are lit

With electrical impulses

That either inspire hope

Or inspire fear

Magic or complacency

What we adhere to we become

So be careful

What you feed your head

Whatever you feed grows

Whatever you starve dies

Positive or negative

Your mind will crave more

Of whatever you feed it

Like an addiction

To break the patterns

That do not serve you

You must guard your mind

You must KNOW what you want

This life gives plenty of choices

Opportunities abound

You must learn to navigate them

Like a boat tossed by the sea

It takes knowledge and

Determination to pull through

To stay the course

To land safely

If you have faith

And if you want it

You can do anything

Your heart desires

So guard your mind

Put your boundaries around it

They’ll say it can’t be done

They’ll say no way

They’ll get angry

When you push through

Their eyes are blind

But you, you see

Even if they get angry

Falsely accuse you

Remember they are blind

If You see

Never give in

Never give up

If they don’t

They’re on the wrong brain train

Let them deplane

Get off at the station

They don’t believe in flying

They would have you

Believe they are right

That you’re crazy

Delusional in fact

Your faith is foolishness

Just listen to them

And they will

Paint your mind

With their negative words

Don’t let them

You don’t need their validation

You’ve learned from your losses

From the grief that comes

From quitting just before

The promise came to pass

The one you made to yourself

To believe and achieve

To make it all the way this time

To not accept defeat

The only way to lose is to give up

If you refuse that option

Then you will make it

All the way

No turning back

Stay focused

Surround yourself with

Positive can do people

Remove yourself from

Negative no can do thinkers

Don’t get stuck on the wrong team

If you want to win

Time to turn the tide

From fear to faith

To color the world

With hope and peace

Imagine all the magic

The good and prosperous

The life you want

Block out the chaos

The poor choices

Of those you once admired

You do not share their fate

You create you own

And make it good

For this life is yours

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The Sarah Hale Folger Project seeks to inspire greatness in humanity by sharing inspiring stories with the world. Please contact me here on my blog or through my website at http://www.TheArtUniverse.com

Sarah Hale Folger is a Creative Consultant, Artist, Singer and Educator. PLEASE make sure to subscribe to my blog today so you never miss the next thing happening in the world the way I see it! Please feel free to comment, share and please, subscribe to my blog. Thanks You.